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Summary A story of a woman on Klonopin for 17 years, struggling to find support for a slow taper. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Klonopin (clonazepam), Ambien (zolpidem), Doctors, Parent, Parental stress, Ashton Manual, Substitution, Tapering, Dosage Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/how-to-taper-from-benzos-part-2-of-2 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Sarah’s Story Hi D, I am so grateful to have someone knowledgeable to talk to about this. THANK YOU. Sorry I wasn’t very clear in my first email. I wrote that one via my cell phone. Anyway, now that I’m at my laptop I can elaborate. First of all, I want you to know that I am aware you are not a doctor and can’t give medical advice. However, having listened to you, I believe you are quite informed (more so than most doctors) and I see that you provide references for everything you can, when it’s available. Having said that, let me elaborate on my story…. I was first prescribed Klonopin about 17 years ago when my son was diagnosed with special needs… I was first prescribed Klonopin about 17 years ago when my son was diagnosed with special needs and I was so anxious I could not sleep, or eat. Anyway, the next five years after that I took it rarely, maybe 4-5 times per year. Then about 12 years ago, a doctor told me it was good as a mood stabilizer (I used to have a lot of mood swings), but I still took it as needed. Maybe 2-3 x per week. At times I took very little, sometimes .25mg, sometimes 1/2 of .25 (yep, I figured out how to break those little half pills). I used to be very sensitive to it and doctors were happy that in all these years…I had never exhibited tolerance. Through the years, I had many jobs and often left them abruptly due to my anxiety. Sometimes, I had taken Klonopin a couple days before I left so I was never quite sure about the role Klonopin played on those stress leaves. This past year, I have been on it quite consistently. I have also been the most consistent in holding a stressful job. I have probably taken it daily the last 12 months, maybe skipping 1-2 days max, here and there. And yes, at days 2-3 I have a hard time sleeping and I feel even more anxious. I have probably not taken it 1-2 days per month this past year, and the PRN dose that I’ve needed did increase this year. Often, I would take .5mg, 2x/day, sometimes .75, one time per day. Anyway, it’s all so confusing. I have a prescription for Ambien PRN as well… Then, if I couldn’t sleep, I would add Ambien to the mix. I have a prescription for Ambien PRN as well, and take that sometimes 2x per month, sometimes 2x per week. I found a doctor that knows about the Ashton Manual. However, because I was engaged when I met him, about 4 months ago, he suggested I wait until after my wedding to taper. Anyway, this brings us to the more recent present. I got married at the end of September. I got married at the end of September. I wanted to start getting ready to taper, but then I was stumped. I can’t find any information on what dose to take, if the dose I was on before varied all the time. I first guessed and started taking .5 mg daily, but that was way too little. I could tell because I got really depressed, anxious, and was afraid to lose my job. I really can’t lose my job. I called the doc. He told me to increase it, so I’m at .625. I am very anxious, hard to sleep, etc., but I’ve been at .625 for about 10 days and it’s tolerable. I don’t yet have any of the intense other symptoms I’ve heard about. Hopefully, I won’t get them, but my symptoms are increasing. I called the doctor, he would tell me to increase my dosage again until I don’t feel symptoms… If I called the doctor, he would tell me to increase my dosage again until I don’t feel symptoms, and believe me, it’s tempting, but I’m hoping I don’t have to increase the dosage at this point. So anyway, to answer your question, yes I do believe I have physical dependence. Maybe it’s not too bad, but I have no idea. This is the first time I take a significant dose consistently. So, I will be meeting with the doctor soon. On the phone he told me that taking Klonopin PRN is a very bad idea. I am not quite sure what to believe. It seems the doctors are guessing too. So, anyway, now I’m taking it regularly. Just FYI, I hate taking it regularly. I used to not take it for social occasions, or to do yoga, or to do my song-writing, and now I feel a little out of it all the time, creativity gone. I guess this is the way to taper and to eventually quit taking it once and for all. But, I just wanted to find out if you had heard otherwise, or had heard of a similar situation. My guess is there are tons of people taking it PRN, and maybe Ashton mentioned a method for them to taper? I believe my doctor wants me to be on a stable dose, switch me to Valium, and then start the taper. I feel like I’m being a guinea pig with no real protocol to follow. The main thing is that I have to keep my job. The main thing is that I have to keep my job. If it comes down to either losing my job, or going back on Klonopin as needed, I will probably go back to the Klonopin. Scary. Anyway, thanks for reading this…. Sarah. Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Summary Roy’s story is that of a dedicated caregiver. A man caring for a women tapering from long-term benzo use, and the lessons he has learned from this experience. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Relationships, Partner, Caregiver, Caregiver Story, Patience, Understanding, Support, Support Team, PTSD, Alcohol, Alcoholism Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/how-to-taper-from-benzos-part-1-of-2 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Roy’s Story I have an amazing woman in my life who has been on a benzo for over 27 years. She has slowly been tapering off of them for about a year now. I think she’s doing amazing and cannot be more proud of her strong will. Let me start by telling you a little about me. I have an amazing woman in my life who has been on a benzo for over 27 years. I’m an Army Veteran who suffers mildly from PTSD. I have suffered from depression since childhood. Let’s say not the best childhood. I have been in and out of treatment for the past 15 years for alcoholism and PTSD. A few months before my girlfriend and I got started dating, my father committed suicide. Having my father die in front of me was something I’ll never forget. Shortly after she and I started dating, I lost my sister to cancer. So, coming into a relationship like this was definitely a challenge for us both. I started the relationship with being irritable at times, which is a HUGE trigger for her or anyone for that matter. The more she and I dated, I started to learn from her. I knew that if I wanted this relationship to work, I needed to change. So, I slowly started to pause, listen, and observe. I have since grown to be more understanding and far less irritable. I am very blessed to have such a strong-willed person in my life. We have been dating for almost three years now, and it was early on when she told me about her [dependence] and her willingness to get off the drug. Naturally, I was supportive. Being new to a relationship like this, it naturally had its ups and downs. She would withdraw, get quiet or even go to the extreme sometimes, and want to break up. Needless to say, we would always work it out and stay together. There were times when I was not sure if I angered her or did something wrong. If I asked what was wrong or anything like that, it would only make it worse. I know that when she is distant or withdrawn, to just let it ride its course. I’ve learned that if I try to cheer her up, or rub her leg or anything like that, she at that moment does not need nor desire to be touched. I know it has nothing to do with me, It’s just a symptom she’s having at the time. I try to do as much as possible so she doesn’t have to. I try to do as much as possible so she doesn’t have to. I want her to be able to have a very relaxed day and have some good quality her time. I try to encourage her as much as possible. I’ll pick her up when she’s down, and even carry her if I have to. My girlfriend and I have the same interest and desires… to travel and climb every mountain in the U.S. and see all the sites we can soak up. We are hiking as much as possible, or doing anything outdoors. If she’s having a bad day, put her on the trail and she slowly pops out of it. Guess the advise I ask is, are there any other things I can do to help her through this transition she’s going though? Any things I maybe should not do? I only want to help her through all of this, as she’s has endured so much in life. She has been a very patient and understanding partner, and I am forever indebted to her. She has taught me patience, tolerance, and understanding. I am better man thanks to her. Roy. Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Benzo withdrawal can seem like an insurmountable hurdle. But the expected struggles can be eased significantly with a little education and support. Grab a plate and visit our buffet of coping skills: you just might find exactly what you need. In today’s episode, we mourn the passing of Prof. C. Heather Ashton. We announce our tribute page to her and share a message from the Ashton family. We also look at the second half of coping skills from A to Z and share a benzo story from Chicago. Video ID: BFP041 Listen to the Podcast This episode is part of a 2-part series. Listen to Part 2 here: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/how-to-taper-from-benzos-part-2-of-2-bfp042 The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:57 Introduction 08:45 Mailbag 14:46 Benzo Story 21:41 Feature 51:48 Moment of Peace Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. INTRODUCTION YOUTUBE: “Ask Dr. Drew LIVE.” October 20, 2019. (Benzo Question can be found at timestamp: 1:01:02. The Ashton Manual by Professor C. Heather Ashton MAILBAG Benzo Free Theme Song: “Walk in the Park” by Neil Cross FEATURE: How to Taper from Benzos (Part 1) Ashton, C. Heather. Benzodiazepines: How They Work and How to Withdraw (aka The Ashton Manual). 2002. Accessed April 13, 2016. http://www.benzo.org.uk/manual. Easing Anxiety: Types of Benzos Page — https://easinganxiety.com/post/types-of-benzos “Benzodiazepine Withdrawal Support: Substitution.” BenzoBuddies. Accessed March 1, 2017. http://www.benzobuddies.org/benzodiazepine-withdrawal-methods/substitution. “Direct Tapers.” BenzoBuddies. Accessed March 2, 2017. http://www.benzobuddies.org/benzodiazepine-withdrawal-methods/direct-taper/. Foster, D E. Benzo Free: The World of Anti-Anxiety Drugs and the Reality of Withdrawal. Erie, Colorado: Denim Mountain Press, 2018. https://easinganxiety.com/book. Merriam-Webster (online), “Taper,” accessed January 20, 2018, https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/taper. The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

Professor C. Heather Ashton passed away on September 15, 2019. This page is dedicated to her memory. Funeral Notice for Prof. Ashton Prof Heather Ashton died peacefully in her sleep at home in South Gosforth shortly before midnight on Sunday 15th September. She lived a long, full, and active life: as a loving wife, mother and homemaker to her much missed husband John and their children John, Caroline, Jim and Andrew (plus family dog Rex, also much missed); as a selfless doctor, teacher, and scientist who never turned away anyone who sought her help; and as a loyal and life-enhancing friend to all to who came close. A light has gone out, but her memory will endure. Donations would be welcome to Dementia UK, a registered charity providing specialist dementia support through the Admiral Nurse service. See instructions at https://www.dementiauk.org/get-involved/donate/ Add your tribute… If you would like to share your own tribute on this page, please submit it on our feedback form (https://easinganxiety.com/feedback). Learn more about Prof. Ashton… Episode #7 of the Benzo Free Podcast was dedicated to Prof. Ashton and her work. https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/the-ashton-manual-who-wrote-it-and-why-you-should-read-it-bfp007 Tributes for Professor Ashton Tributes are displayed in the order they were received, with the most recent at the top. Thank you so much Dear Prof. Ashton. You are one of the few who give people hope. So much important when you experience protracted withdrawal symptoms like I do and I guess many others as well. Through your manual, you explain so well what some others simply are not aware of. But most of all, you give us the strength to be patient, positive, and self-confident about our recovery. I have never met you but you belong to the people. I will always remember. Thank you Professor. — R Belgium Professor Ashton’s manual literally saved my life. I was three weeks into a cold turkey not knowing what was going on. I am forever in her debt. She truly still is my hero. — Jan Billings, Montana Prof. Ashton, thank you for LISTENING. When other professionals were not bothering to look at the anecdotal data to prove what we were going through in withdrawal was REAL, you took the time to hear us and offer a solution to help. You saved many lives with your work. Gratitude. Thank you — Jenny New Hampshire Thank you so much for your dedication and of course your manual , I have read it and still refer back to it often, I am still in the process of recovering from benzo’s and without your work I would still be clueless as to what is happening to me. You have touched the hearts of so many and your legacy will go on forever. Thank you — Nancy United Kingdom Adding my heartfelt thanks to a pioneer who saw early on the devastation that this drug can do, and fought hard to stop it. Her light will forever shine. A true angel. — Geraldine South Africa Almost all the information and advice that helped me to accept and understand what I was going through can be traced back to this woman and her manual that objectively collected together the experiences of so many others that had gone before me. Only by knowing what to expect was I able to have the courage to free myself from the chemical bondage of these sinister drugs. I will remember her. — Trevor Canada A great person leaves us, will live in all those who have to thank her so much, thank you for everything you have done in your life to help others, rest in peace. — Alfredo Torrelavega, Cantabria, España Dr. Ashton’s Manual rescued me, and untold others, from the agony of perpetual physical dependence. She was a consummate scientist, humanitarian, and unsung heroine. I only wish I could have met her and thanked her personally. — Jeff Winfield, Illinois Thank you professor Ashton, may you rest in peace. — David Japan I am sending my condolences to the family of Professor Ashton. Of course I never knew her, but I did spend many long nights reviewing and studying her Manual regarding Benzo drugs and their withdrawal symptoms. Thank you Professor Ashton for helping me through a very long journey through my withdrawal process. — Ann California I would not be here today if it weren’t for Professor Ashton. It was because of her Ashton Manual that I was able to endure the indescribable torture that I endured for several years. Without that manual I would not have known that it was the drugs themselves that were rendering me incapacitated. Her manual allowed me to make sense of what would have otherwise been total confusion and a belief that I was dying. I may have even taken my own life had I not know what was driving those intrusive thoughts. Professor Ashton has literally saved countless lives and as a recipient of that gift I will continue to spread awareness about the dangers of these toxins and to keep her memory and legacy alive. — L. P. Bonjour je suis très triste d’appendre cette nouvelle, cette Dame nous a sauvés Sur le Forum ou je suis modératrice, nous nous servons de son manuel tout le temps Paix à son âme condoléances à sa famille — Anonymous When I heard the news this morning, I started crying although I never met you in person. It surprised myself as I did not know you were my beacon of hope in the struggle for change in the medical field and benzodiazepine prescriptions. I know you were retired for a long time, but still, the fact of you being there was comforting. We were not alone. We had someone who believed us and who fought with us. All I can say to you now is: Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being a benzo warrior with us and for us. You are an extraordinary woman and you will not be forgotten! — Elisabeth The Netherlands Donde quiera que estes. Siempre Seras mi Ángel. Oracioes por ti. Y gracias infinitas. — Alejandro Medelin Antioquia, Columbia Her light definitely shone brightly over me. — Graham So sad to hear the news about Dr. Ashton’s passing. What a great woman she was, helping so many people. Her “bible” for tapering off benzos is treasured by all of us now and will be for generations to come. — Suzanne Silverton, Oregon On a day when my convulsions have resurfaced, further slowing my tapering, and also the same day I make my first donation to a benzo awareness website, I get this sad news of the great Professor’s passing. Where would we be without her research and her believing the stories of all of us who have suffered and struggled to find help. Thank you, dear lady, for your compassion and hard work. My sincere condolences to her family and the Benzo Community. —Liz Portland, Oregon I would like to express my gratitude to Prof. Ashton for unselfishly giving her time and expertise to a relatively unknown group of benzo withdrawal sufferers. When my husband was in his darkest days of benzo withdrawal, her free manual consistently provided him with the information and hope he needed to carry on. She has been a great source of reassurance for so many people across the globe. My heartfelt sympathies go out to her friends and family — may they find comfort in knowing that Prof. Ashton made a difference in this world. — Shana Broomfield, Colorado

“As Prescribed” is a highly anticipated, upcoming film about the benzo crises which documents personal accounts, legislative efforts, and a mountain of evidence. Listen as filmmaker Holly Hardman shares her experiences making this film. In today’s episode, we have part two of the insightful interview with Holly Hardman where she talks in-depth about her experiences with the film and the challenges she incurred along the way. We also share a benzo story from San Diego, California, and talk about an upcoming Benzo Free road trip. Video ID: BFP040 Listen to the Podcast This episode is part of a 2-part series. Listen to Part 1 here: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/conversation-with-filmmaker-holly-hardman-part-1-of-2-bfp039 The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:57 Introduction 09:50 Benzo Story 20:06 Feature 51:01 Moment of Peace Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. BENZO STORY QPR Institute / Training PSYCHOLOGY TODAY: Article on QPR Easing Anxiety Resources on Suicide Prevention FEATURE: Conversation with Holly Hardman (Part 1 of 2) AS PRESCRIBED: Film Website AS PRESCRIBED: Facebook Page The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

Summary Robert’s story begins with Klonopin dependence, alcohol addiction, and a suicide attempt, but ends with confidence of recovery and healing. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Klonopin (clonazepam), alcohol, alcoholism, AA, suicide, suicidal ideation, addiction, recovery Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/conversation-with-filmmaker-holly-hardman-part-2-of-2 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Suicide and Addiction Content. This story includes narrative elements about suicide, suicidal ideation, and alcohol addiction and recovery. If these topics are of specific concern to you, please refrain from reading any further. Robert’s Story Hello D. I’ve been listening to your podcast and wanted to reach out. My story is similar in many ways. I am 13 months into a protracted withdrawal, and I’m better — but haven’t recovered yet. It’s been horrible. The reason I’m writing is that my story differs in a couple of ways that may be helpful to share. I’m an alcoholic. When Klonopin was prescribed, I had been completely sober for 17 years. I’m an alcoholic. When Klonopin was prescribed, I had been completely sober for 17 years. The M.D. that prescribed the drug was aware of my substance abuse issue but my anxiety was so severe we did it anyway. Many medical professionals call benzos a drink in a pill, as it affects the same receptor sites in the brain, so my body thought I was drinking three or four shots a day. The doctor’s opinion in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous states that any alcohol in the body of an alcoholic initiates a predictable result. It triggers the obsession of the mind, unique in an addict, as well as the allergy of the body. The result was predictable. I relapsed, which brings me to the second part of why my story. It’s a little different. The relapse involved a suicide attempt, where I combined the alcohol with 90 mg of Klonopin. The relapse involved a suicide attempt, where I combined the alcohol with 90 mg of Klonopin. I survived, but the last seven years has been a storm of psych meds, ECT, TMS, IOP, therapy, etc. It may be helpful to share this story in one of your podcasts. I understand there is a reluctance in the benzo community to be labeled an addict, but some of us are. And secondly, suicide is something that I think needs to be discussed more openly. It’s not understood and the ignorance is costing people their lives. Certainly, suicidal ideation has been and continues to be a part of my recovery, and I find that stress triggers the damaged nerves in my brain. The symptoms of withdrawal emerge in such an intense way that it triggers the need to drink. I understand there is a reluctance in the benzo community to be labeled an addict, but some of us are. I’m fighting. I’m not drinking every day at all, but I’m not sober either. The people in AA don’t understand. I don’t fit there at this point and so support from a community is lacking. I’m going to get through this. It’s going to take some more time, but I expect it to continue to be hard on both me and my wife. Perhaps my story will help someone who’s dealing with the same issue. Thanks for the work you’re doing. Robert Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

“As Prescribed” is a highly anticipated, upcoming film about the benzo crises which documents personal accounts, legislative efforts, and a mountain of evidence. Listen as filmmaker Holly Hardman shares her experiences making this film. In today’s episode, we have part one of the insightful interview with Holly Hardman where she tells her personal benzo story and shares a few of her experiences as a filmmaker. We also have a comment about using an Ace bandage to relieve anxiety, a question about the fear of lying, and we provide a welcome to any newcomers to the podcast. Video ID: BFP039 Listen to the Podcast This episode is part of a 2-part series. Listen to Part 2 here: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/conversation-with-filmmaker-holly-hardman-part-2-of-2-bfp040 The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:57 Introduction 10:05 Mailbag 17:49 Feature 48:41 Moment of Peace Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. INTRODUCTION CNN: This is Life with Lisa Ling – Story on Benzos, Oct. 6th The Ashton Manual on Benzo.org.uk World Benzodiazepine Awareness Day (W-BAD) Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) MAILBAG Comment on ACE Bandage Wrap: TJacket FEATURE: Conversation with Holly Hardman (Part 1 of 2) AS PRESCRIBED: Film Website AS PRESCRIBED: Facebook Page The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

The Short Version (for those on the go) D E Foster ("D") is founder of the support site Easing Anxiety, host of The Benzo Free Podcast, and co-chair and founding member of the Benzodiazepine Action Work Group. He is a published author on multiple research papers and a global advocate for anxiety and benzodiazepine awareness, education, and support. D has struggled with anxiety most of his life. In 2002, he was prescribed clonazepam (Klonopin) by his primary care physician for gastric distress, and he took the medication for 12 years without warning. His withdrawal experience was extreme and became the foundation for his book, Benzo Free: The World of Anti-Anxiety Drugs and the Reality of Withdrawal. D is now nine-years benzo-free, still deals with the lingering effects of BIND (benzodiazepine-induced neurological dysfunction), and spends most of his time working in the anxiety and benzo communities. RESEARCH TEAMS / PUBLICATIONS Benzodiazepine Tapering Research Pilot Program, Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center (BIDMC) (2023 - Present) Patient Panel for the Development of Safe Tapering from Benzodiazepines, American Society of Addiction Medicine (ASAM) (2023 - Present) Benzodiazepine Survey of 2018-2019, The Alliance for Benzodiazepine Best Practices (2019 - 2023) Ritvo AD, Foster DE, Huff C, Finlayson AJR, Silvernail B, et al. (2023) Long-term consequences of benzodiazepine-induced neurological dysfunction: A survey. PLOS ONE 18(6): e0285584. https://doi.org/10.1371/journal.pone.0285584. Huff C, Finlayson AJR, Foster DE, Martin PR. Enduring neurological sequelae of benzodiazepine use: an Internet survey. Therapeutic Advances in Psychopharmacology. 2023;13. doi:10.1177/20451253221145561. https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/10.1177/20451253221145561. Reid Finlayson AJ, Macoubrie J, Huff C, Foster DE, Martin PR. Experiences with benzodiazepine use, tapering, and discontinuation: an Internet survey. Therapeutic Advances in Psychopharmacology. 2022;12. doi:10.1177/20451253221082386. https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/full/10.1177/20451253221082386. BIND Nosology, The Alliance for Benzodiazepine Best Practices (2022-2023) Ritvo AD, Foster DE, Huff C, Finlayson AJR, Silvernail B, et al. (2023) Long-term consequences of benzodiazepine-induced neurological dysfunction: A survey. PLOS ONE 18(6): e0285584. https://doi.org/10.1371/journal.pone.0285584. Safeguarding BZRAs Study, Royal College of Surgeons, Ireland (RCSI). (2022-2023) T Lynch, CRyan, C Bradley, D Foster, C Huff, S Hutchinson, N Lamberson, L Lynch, and C Cadogan, Supporting sAFE and GradUAl ReDuctIon of loNG-term BenzodiaZepine Receptor Agonist uSe: development of the SAFEGUARDING-BZRAs toolkit using a co-design approach, International Journal of Pharmacy Practice, Volume 30, Issue Supplement_1, April 2022, Pages i2–i3, https://doi.org/10.1093/ijpp/riac021.003. KEY SPEAKING EVENTS / TRAINING Rx and Illicit Drug Summit, Faculty. April 10-13, 2023. Atlanta, Georgia. https://www.rx-summit.com/. Colorado Consortium for Prescription Drug Abuse Prevention / Lunch and Learn (CME), Co-Presenter. March 29, 2023. "Benzodiazepine-Induced Neurological Dysfunction (BIND)." https://benzoaction.org. Recovering From Benzodiazepine Use for Peer Specialists (12-Hour Training). Course Development Lead / Pilot Co-Instructor. December 5-6, 2022. https://benzopeertraining.org. Benzo Warrior, Presenter. July 26, 2022. "A New You: Life After Benzo Withdrawal." https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/a-new-you-life-after-benzo-withdrawal-recorded-live-at-benzo-warrior. Colorado Consortium for Prescription Drug Abuse Prevention / Lunch and Learn (CME), Co-Presenter. May 8, 2022. "BIND: The Patient Experience." https://benzoaction.org. The Long Version (in case you’re really bored) Hi, my name is “D E Foster,” but everyone just calls me “D.” It’s a nickname my nephews gave me when they were young and I guess it stuck. Does “D” stand for anything? Sure, but when I published my book I decided to go with the initials only. Now, I answer more quickly to “D” than to my given name. So, I guess I’ll stick with it. Who was I before all this? Well, thanks for asking. I’ve always been a bit nomadic career-wise, and I guess that hasn’t changed. I spent about 30 years working in two primary arenas. The first is database programming, including full-time and contract positions at Microsoft, Sprint, US West, Vail Resorts, and others. The second is as a contract screenwriter, screenwriting teacher, and film festival organizer. I taught screenwriting at the University of Colorado, Denver, the Colorado Film School, and several conferences and festivals on the film circuit. I was also on the advisory board for the Vail Film Festival for 10 years when I headed up their educational programming. In 2013, my life completely changed. I discovered I was dependent on the anti-anxiety drug clonazepam (Klonopin) and read some of the horror stories of what withdrawal might entail. It wasn’t a pretty picture. I had taken the medication as prescribed by my physician for 12 years without any warning of risks. And now, my new doctor told me I needed to withdraw. So I did. Unfortunately, it was the hardest and most challenging experience of my life — one I am still dealing with today. I experienced an odyssey of debilitating withdrawal complications including extreme anxiety, depression, cognitive dysfunction, memory loss, akathisia, paresthesia, benzo belly, severe aches and pains, tremors, tinnitus, insomnia, and many others. I tapered off the medication for 18 months and was finally benzo-free on August 20th, 2014. I still have protracted symptoms, am unable to work in my previous profession, and struggle with my recovery at times — but, thanks to the Ashton Manual and my incredible family, I made it through. The good news is that I am much better than I was during the early phase of withdrawal and I am very optimistic about my future. For the first four years of withdrawal, I had a lot of questions. Questions that needed answers. So, I spent most of my time researching. I read everything I could find about benzodiazepines, withdrawal, anxiety, psychology, physiology, philosophy, spirituality, happiness, life, love, you name it. Eventually, I had read and catalogued over one thousand articles, books, and videos on these subjects. I was suffering through extended withdrawal symptoms, lost my job, and I had all this research. Now what? Well, I wrote a book. Big surprise, right? But it was a book I had to write. I had all this research and I truly needed for this horrible experience to mean something. Something good had to come out of all of this. The book was published in August 2018 and is titled: “Benzo Free: The World of Anti-Anxiety Drugs and the Reality of Withdrawal.” I followed that up with a website to promote the book titled… you guessed it, Benzo Free. In early 2019, I was looking for something new and I decided to try my hand at podcasting. I had some recording experience and still had some audio equipment from my days as a drummer. So, on February 20, 2019, I released the first five episodes of “The Benzo Free Podcast” — and it became a minor success. More importantly, though, I really enjoyed it. Especially the opportunity to correspond with individuals from all corners of the globe. I can honestly say that those comments and emails got me through my darkest days. Still restless, I launched our new website (Easing Anxiety) in 2020 and added some anxiety videos to our content. I also started the lengthy process of migrating our Benzo Free content to the new domain. Easing Anxiety became the new home of the Benzo Free Podcast and now hosts a collection of articles, videos, stories, and other content geared towards those dealing with dependence and withdrawal. Unfortunately, due to a variety of hurdles along the way, the migration has been a slow, ongoing process. But, we are making progress. Benzo withdrawal can be a daunting, even harrowing process for some — and I was no exception. Writing the book, hosting the podcast, and launching Easing Anxiety were a few of my saving graces — they kept me busy and got me through. I am incredibly blessed to have an amazingly supportive wife and family and I realize that despite what I went through — I was one of the lucky ones. In addition to Easing Anxiety and the podcast, I am active as an advocate for those who struggle with the complications of long-term benzodiazepine use. I am co-chair and a founding member of the Benzodiazepine Action Work Group (BAWG) at the Colorado Consortium for Prescription Drug Abuse Prevention, which is part of the University of Colorado's Anschutz Medical Center. This is an amazing organization with excellent backing and support, and key involvement from national benzo community organizations such as BIC, the Alliance, and Benzo Warrior. Our projects have included published documentation on prescribing, deprescribing, and peer support, CME training sessions and videos, the first benzodiazepine-specific certified peer specialist training program in the country, and much more. We are making great strides and I am excited for the future of this organization. In 2019, I joined my first research team composed of six individuals from the Alliance for Benzodiazepine Best Practices, Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC),the University of Colorado Anschutz School of Medicine, and Vanderbilt University. This team focused on the data collected by the benzodiazepine survey of 2018-2019. We published our first research paper in 2022, and the other two in 2023. The third paper officially introduced the term benzodiazepine-induced neurological dysfunction (BIND) which defines the protracted state of neuroadaptation and/or neurotoxicity. I've also been privileged to be a part of other research teams including the Safeguarding BZRAs team from Ireland and most recently a patient panel on safe tapering from benzodiazepines sponsored by the American Society of Addition Medicine (ASAM). and a benzodiazepine tapering research pilot program through Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center (BIDMC). A former college instructor, I truly enjoy the training and speaking opportunities that have come my way. I have presented continuing medical education (CME) seminars on a variety of benzodiazepine related topics and served as faculty at the 2023 Rx and Illicit Drug Summit in Atlanta. I've also been a guest on several podcasts and support sites and was project lead and co-instructed the pilot for the Benzodiazepine Action Work Group Peer Support Training Course launching in 2023. My schedule does not allow for a lot of free time, but what I do have I spend with my wife, Shana, at our home in Colorado. We lost our beloved dog, Bear, in August of 2021, but we hope to find a new four-legged friend to join our family in 2023. We love walks, travel, books, movies, spending time with friends and family, and all that normal stuff other people do. Well, that’s what I do. Thanks for listening. What about you? Tell me a bit about yourself via our feedback form if you have a chance. I’d love to hear from you. Best, D 🙂

Benzo withdrawal can seem like an insurmountable hurdle. But the expected struggles can be eased significantly with a little education and support. Grab a plate and visit our buffet of coping skills: you just might find exactly what you need. In today’s episode, we mourn the passing of Prof. C. Heather Ashton. We announce our tribute page to her and share a message from the Ashton family. We also look at the second half of coping skills from A to Z and share a benzo story from Chicago. Video ID: BFP038 Listen to the Podcast This episode is part of a 2-part series. Listen to Part 1 here: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/coping-skills-from-a-to-z-part-1-of-2-bfp037 The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:57 Introduction 05:47 Benzo News 06:31 Benzo Story 13:09 Feature 53:23 Moment of Peace Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. INTRODUCTION Easing Anxiety: Tribute Page for Prof. Ashton — https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/tribute-to-professor-ashton Easing Anxiety: Feedback Form to Submit Tribute for Prof. Ashton — https://easinganxiety.com/feedback Easing Anxiety: Blog Post w/ Letter from John Ashton — https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/tribute-page-for-prof-ashton-and-a-request-for-privacy Donations to Dementia UK — https://www.dementiauk.org/get-involved/donate/ BENZO NEWS CNN: Live with Lisa Ling – Story on Benzos, Oct. 6th FEATURE: Coping Skills from A to Z (Part 2 of 2) 1slowtv. “Scenic train ride from Bergen to Oslo (Norway).” YouTube video. 7.5 hours. August 30, 2014. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xisVS_DKpJg. “Alphabet of Stress Management and Coping Skills.” Rutgers University: Robert Wood Johnson Medical School. Accessed September 30, 2019. http://rwjms.rutgers.edu/departments_institutes/cf_center/documents/Alphabet-of-Coping-Skills-Interventions.pdf. Ashton, C. Heather. Benzodiazepines: How They Work and How to Withdraw (aka The Ashton Manual). 2002. Accessed April 13, 2016. http://www.benzo.org.uk/manual.. Curtin, Melanie. “Neuroscience Says Listening to This Song Reduces Anxiety by Up to 65 Percent.” Inc. May 30, 2017. Accessed April 13, 2018, https://www.inc.com/melanie-curtin/neuroscience-says-listening-to-this-one-song-reduces-anxiety-by-up-to-65-percent.html. Foster, D E. Benzo Free: The World of Anti-Anxiety Drugs and the Reality of Withdrawal. Erie, Colorado: Denim Mountain Press, 2018. https://easinganxiety.com/book. Honore, Carl. In Praise of Slowness: Challenging the Cult of Speed. New York: Harper Collins, 2004. https://read.amazon.com/kp/embed?asin=B0024CF0CK&preview=newtab&linkCode=kpe&ref_=cm_sw_r_kb_dp_ih-KDb49KKH0B. JustMusicTV. “Marconi Union – Weightless (Official Video).” YouTube Video, 8:08, September 4, 2014. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UfcAVejslrU. Mulpeter, Kathleen. “These Are the Best Exercises for Anxiety and Depression.” Health. March 24, 2016. Accessed March 7, 2017. http://www.health.com/depression/these-are-the-best-exercises-for-anxiety-and-depression. Park, Burn Jin, Yuko Tsunetsugu, Tamami Kasetani, Takahide Kagwa, and Yoshifumi Miyazaki. “The physiological effects of Shinrin-yoku (taking in the forest atmosphere or forest bathing): evidence from field experiments in 24 forests across Japan.” Environmental Health and Preventive Medicine 15(18)(2009). Accessed July 14, 2017. https://environhealthprevmed.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.1007/s12199-009-0086-9. “Progressive Muscle Relaxation.” National Jewish Health. Accessed September 30, 2019. https://www.nationaljewish.org/health-insights/stress-and-relaxation/relax/muscle-relaxation. “Wayne Dyer Quotes.” BrainyQuote.com. 2018. Accessed April 13, 2018. https://www.brainyquote.com/citation/quotes/wayne_dyer_173500. “What is EFT tapping?” Healthline. Accessed September 23, 2019. https://www.healthline.com/health/eft-tapping. The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

Summary A desperate story of mental health difficulties with multiple medications including Xanax, Effexor, and others. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Xanax (alprazolam), Effexor (venlafaxine), Lamactil (lamotrigine), detox, convulsions, brain scan, qEEG, diet, exercise Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/coping-skills-from-a-to-z-part-2-of-2 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Lindsay’s Story I was diagnosed with panic disorder and GAD at 15 years of age, and was put on an anti-depressants, which in turn triggered my genetic predisposition for bipolar; my mom has this too. All through my life I’ve been on over 60 meds, because I’m treatment resistant. Anyways, I was on Effexor for about 18 years and it became a nightmare. I am now 38, so I weaned off of that and was given Xanax 1 mg. I had no idea what that would do to me, and thought I could up the dose whenever my body needed it. My doctor upped it a few times, and I ended up on 6 mg. I never abused the drug and hated taking it. …I went to a one-month residential treatment facility where they gave me more drugs…I was practically convulsing. Shortly after I went into tolerance and was so desperate to get off, I went to a one-month residential treatment facility where they gave me more drugs while decreasing my Xanax, to the point where I was practically convulsing. I was shaking so bad my jaw went back and forth violently, urinary incontinence at times, BP so high I had to go to the ER at one point. Anyway, they pretty much gave up and prescribed me 12 mg of Ativan! I had no idea and wasn’t educated. Then they sent me off on my way. I had all of the symptoms of withdrawal, tolerance, acute symptoms. I became agoraphobic, panic attacks, intense fear that left me unable to even take the garbage out, and still to this day. My BP can be normal and shoot up so high in seconds. High enough where it’s dangerous. Not able to go to family get togethers for years now. I was on them for a little over 4 years, and my cognition is so bad, acid trip perceptions. I have to wear sunglasses everywhere, even indoors which is embarrassing, and that’s been the case for over four years too. I feel dumb and broken. I have to wear sunglasses everywhere, even indoors… It’s been almost 5 months off with a very slow taper, and small things are better, but not enough to make me hopeful. The acid trip perception is the worse, and the fear all day, every day. I also got to the point where I couldn’t fall asleep until 9 am or later, although I can fall asleep around 3:30 now. I feel I will not heal anytime soon, and I’ve never heard of anyone else feeling like they have been on acid for this long. That’s the only thing I think I can relate it too. I haven’t worked in 3 years now and feel like I never will. It’s not for lack of strength either. I’ve felt like I’m in acute for years. I don’t know what other word to use. My story is long and complicated, with a history of mental illness so maybe that’s why I’m not healing. I’m also on Lamictal which effects GABA and glutamate, so I’m scared. I tried weaning off, but that has proven impossible, and I thought getting off of Ativan was the priority. Who knows! I had a qEEG done…I tested possible for PCP and was shocked. Anyway, that is part of my story. It’s interesting because I had a qEEG done when I was on 6 mg and the neuroscientist knew right away what was happening. I have a print out of pictures of my brain and it’s a mess. Lit up like a Christmas tree. It tells you what part of your brain is effected and why. I tested possible for PCP and was shocked. He explained to me that the Lamictal and Ativan were creating that chemical state, some weird interaction. That makes sense because of some of the symptoms. Then I went for psychological/cognitive testing that lasted a few days and it correlated exactly with the qEEG, and completely different doctors, so I knew then what was causing it. Also worth mentioning is that I do P90X every single day. Yoga, kempo, weight training, etc. I was about 100 lbs at one point, and made myself work out, and have now gained most of my muscle back and am at a healthy weight. I eat pretty plain but always chicken, fresh veggies, and fruit. Never any food in boxes. I can’t have carbs, sugar, beef, caffeine and I know that’s common. I’m eternally optimistic, at least that’s what a few people say, but it’s slowly fading the longer this goes on. I’m eternally optimistic…but it’s slowly fading the longer this goes on. Thank you for all that you do. It means so much to me the validation I get from listening to you and others. It has made me cry it means that much. Your effort and support I will be forever grateful for. Please excuse if I repeat things. I have very significant cognitive deficits. Lindsay Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Tribute Page The Prof. Ashton Tribute Page on Benzo Free is now online. We would love to add more messages to that page so please submit them when you can. You can do this via our feedback form or just comment on this or any other blog post and I will add it to that page. This page will remain a permanent part of the Benzo Free website and I hope it will continue to grow with heart-warming messages for the Professor and her family. Request for Privacy I also want to make a personal plea to respect the family’s privacy during this time. Benzo Free has not published the funeral date out of respect for the family and we ask that the members of the benzo community honor Prof. Ashton’s wishes that the funeral remain a family-focused event. There are many other ways to honor this amazing woman in lieu of attending the funeral. I received a request from John Ashton this morning to make the following letter public. Thank you, D Letter from John Ashton Heather Ashton’s Funeral I am John Ashton, Heather’s eldest son. I cared for my mother through the last four years of her life. I was with her during her final confinement and when she died. It was my mother’s unambiguous wish that her funeral should primarily be a family affair. Unfortunately, and unaccountably, details of the event have started to circulate freely on benzo-related platforms, and word has reached us that some people may be planning to attend uninvited and unannounced. Please understand that to do so would not be welcome to my mother. It would be an act of disrespect towards her and her memory. Her family would be grateful if anyone currently considering attending on this basis could abandon any such plans. We completely understand the emotional impact Heather’s death will have on the countless people around the world – victims of benzo injustice and campaigners against it alike – who owe their lives, health and sanity to her compassion and her pioneering work. But there are many ways to show that, and there is no such impact that could justify a failure to show Heather in death the kindness and courtesy that she showed in life to all who sought her help or crossed her path. That’s not to say that this wonderful community should be unrepresented. But Mum wanted to keep that to a small number of people with whom she was particularly close. They, and we, know who they are and it is our responsibility as a family to make sure they know they will be welcome. We hope the rest of the community can show their grief, and celebrate Mum’s life, in other ways, not least by continuing to stand tall in the struggle, on the foundation she laid. John Ashton 1 October 2019

I just received some very sad news today from the Ashton family. Professor C. Heather Ashton passed away just before midnight on Sunday, September 15, 2019. Her transition was peaceful and she is now at rest. Her family has requested privacy during this time so they can mourn in peace. Instead of contacting them directly, they would prefer messages to be directed toward online tributes instead. I will launch a tribute page for Prof. Ashton on the Benzo Free website in the next couple of days. I’m sure other organizations will do the same. This page will include messages from each of you if you’d like to contribute. Please complete our Feedback Form with your submission and check the permissions checkbox so we can include them online. I am at a loss for words at this time and will keep this post short. I’m sure there will be more to follow. If you would like to learn more about Prof. Ashton and her work, please visit our page on the Ashton Manual. Before I go, though, I just want to say one simple thing to Prof. Ashton and her family from the bottom of my heart… Thank you Peace, D